NYC Mom

Ugh. I'm feeling quite torn right now. Glenn and I rarely disagree on things especially important things. This is a big one. I don't want to state the specifics because it's not my story to tell. I just want to write about the conflicted feelings I'm having.
It's hard when you have to make a choice about doing what's considered to be the "right" thing to do and doing what you feel is the best thing to do, for you. Sometimes we have to sacrifice our personal feelings and do something for someone else that we find to be distasteful. It's hard though when you try to teach your kids to be true to themselves then you have to put on a facade for the sake of someone else. I knew things would come to this eventually but not just yet. I hate the indifference that I feel when I know I should be feeling sad and upset. I'm not the only one with the indifferent feelings...we all feel it and it makes me sad that we were meant to feel this way about someone who should be very important and revered in our lives. I don't want a decision to be made that may be regretted later. We'll get through this but I'm afraid that it may leave a scar.